Tuesday, December 1, 2009

I Was The Soul Who Took Pity And Stole Him Away

So the last few days have been...
interesting.
i'll tell you the good news, my little blogging friends.
And it requires a story. (Doesn't everything, when it comes to me?)
Okay, so, over the summer, i was in Godspell.
(YAY!)
it's an awesome, awesome musical. i dressed like a hippie (all in purple) and was named Robin and danced around and was a disciple and sang a love song to God and...
dated Jesus.
(Not many girls can say that. i feel i have bragging rights. like, I DATED JESUS!)
Okay, so his name wasn't really Jesus, his name was DJ, and he played Jesus in Godspell.
but anyway.
now, it obviously wasn't serious, as he was leaving for Tennessee. for college. but i liked him and we were friends, so it was fun.
and then he had to leave.
and he broke up with me through texts.
oh, reader, i do so hope you just cringed at the spinelessness of it all.
I was kinda upset.
i didn't cry, thank you very much. Well, i started to cry once when i was talking to Jo, but then i flung things against her wall and felt all better.
(but, see, it wasn't just that my boyfriend broke up with me. it was also that my best friend left for college too. it was kind of a super hard time. i missed Jo a lot, and i had no one to talk to about it, and DJ refused to talk to me. he just stopped texting me or talking to me at all. i felt all alone. the people i spent all summer with were suddenly and inexplicably gone. super depressed.)
so i went through a period where i was sad. and then i went through a period where i was angry.
but, see, i hate being angry with people, so i forgave him. i could understand why he did it.
but i'm a "resolve and forget" kind of person. so, being unable to talk to him or anything kind of got to me... a lot. it bothers me to have things like that. but i got over him, and moved on, and was mostly okay... except i still felt bad for having that... i don't know, not friendship. yeah. i didn't like not being friends with him, and having that anger between us, i guess. i don't know how to explain it.
and then, yesterday, i got home from school and got onto Facebook, and i had a message.
now, there is a certain person, i'm angry at him and told him to leave me alone, and i was afraid it was him. (He needs to leave me alone so i can stop being angry, or i might kill him.)
so i sighed and opened the message...
and it was an apology from DJ. like, the most well-thought out, wonderful apology i've ever gotten. i was like, "YES!" and now i don't have that hanging over my head anymore, and we're friends again. :D
so, i felt like a weight had been lifted off of my chest.
and then, of course, the guy i'm angry with had to then call me and leave a message on my phone. (Seriously. what part of "I want you to leave me alone for a while!" don't you get, you retard?)
but enough of that. You know how people say that God never gives us more than we can handle? they're right. it always seems that just when i'm about to kill someone or break down or whatever, God steps in and fixes something or sends me someone so that i can manage. So, i was mad at this guy, and just when i thought i couldn't take it anymore, i get a friend back. it's just a good feeling. God's a good guy, i'm quite fond of him.